Failure, Again.

So, things went pretty well yesterday.  Breakfast on plan.  At lunch, we had our department holiday lunch at a local restaurant.  While what I had may not have been 100% on plan (grilled chicken breast with a balsamic glaze, steamed broccoli and a white and wild rice mix) I was pretty happy with how I did.  Then I got home.  Christmas cookies are all over the counter.  Need I say more?  I can usually pass these up, but I slipped.  No idea why I did and I'm very frustrated that I can't seem to get this under control.  Today is a new day and another new start.  So far today so good, although I'm startvin marvin and it's only 9:00 am.  Lunch is a long way off.  Fortunately, I've got a pile of contracts that I need to review today.  Nothing like some good legal mumbo jumbo to occupy your time.

Ugh. Christmas Cookies.

I did good yesterday up until about 7:00 pm.  SO was making Christmas cookies and needed my opinion on whether or not the anise flavor was strong enough.  At first, I just tasted the frosting - you know, just a dab on my finder.  Yes, I could taste anise.  No, he said, you need to taste it with the cookie to see if it's strong enough.  So I took a small bite.  No, it wasn't enough.  He then left me with the remainder of the cookie and went off to boost the flavor.  I immediately thought that I need to throw out the rest of the cookie, but it was so small, and I didn't want to get up off the couch.  You know what came next.  Ugh.  Need I say more?

Let me know if you stop by!

So, this blog is really for me, so that I can keep track of my thoughts, progress, complaints, etc...  That being said, I'm happy to have visitors, so please let me know if you stop by!

Well, yesterday was 100% on plan.  Ok, I lied.  Dinner last night was chili.  The chili was totally on plan - it was a recipe posted on the slimgenics message board by Kim, who develops recipes for Slimgenics.  My one cheat was I added about a tablespoon of fat free sour cream to my chili.  All in all, I think that's a pretty successful day.

So far today, things are going well, but I'm hungry, and I've got at least another hour before I should eat one of my snacks.  I should get busy at work to take my mind off of it.

Goal for today.

I should add my goal for the day.  In our house, we have a cabinet full of chips, and my significant other is constantly baking cookies.  We also have a drawer in our pantry full of candy.  I don't buy chips or candy, but when they are easily accessible, I do eat them - same goes for the cookies.  As much as I'd like to just get this stuff out of the house, I know that won't happen.  I don't get much support from my SO when i t comes to weight loss (or anything else quite frankly), and when talking about this in the past he has said "just don't eat them."  Well, if that worked, I probably would not be my current weight.  Self control is not my forte.  What I plan to do when I get home today is to consolidate all the chips, candy, cookies, etc...into one cabinet.  I expect to have a fight on my hands - especially with the cookies which I do not want sitting out on the counter.  I know if would be easy for me to open the cabinet door and get to any of these items, but I think at least getting them out from under my nose would help, and putting them all into one cabinet, which I have no business going into, is a step in the right direction.  I've thought of putting a lock on the cabinet door, but that would result in a full out war - no need for that at this time.

So ... that went well.

So, I obviously didn't keep up with this blog.  Still back and forth with Slimgenics.  I do think the program works, it's just really hard for me to stick with it.  I'm not sure why - it's not that I'm hungry, I just can't control the part of my brain that makes me eat things I shouldn't.  Anyway - I'm again hoping that by memorializing my journey here, it will help to motivate me and keep me on track.

So, my last weight in was 12/7/13, and I weighed in at 296.  I was pretty much off plan all of last week, so my guess is that I'm up at least 5 pounds if not more.  While I may be off plan, I don't think calories are out of control, so I'm not sure why I still gain..

So far so good today.  Breakfast was 3oz of greek yogurt, 1/4 blueberries, 1/4 fiber one cereal and a glass of skim milk.  I had the required "snack" around 9:30 - a protein bar.  Lunch was a small spinach salad and some chicken soup I made to be on plan - it's basically just making sure it's made with on plan veggies and controlling the amounts. My soup has green beans, cauliflower and kale.  Too much kale really, but I did pick some out. I used 18 ounes of chicken breast (raw) when making this, so I divided it up into 6 servings.

I probably won't weigh in until tomorrow - that will give me another day to lose some of the water weight I'm sure I gained. Ugh.

Starting Over Again

This is my first attempt at a blog.  For the general reader, it's just another weight loss blog.  For me, it's a record of what I do on a day by day basis, so I can see what I do that is successful, and what I do that causes me to stall.

I've started and stopped the Slimgenics plan many many times. I have seen successes on this plan, but I keep letting myself get sidetracked and going off plan.  This is my 87th attempt at a fresh start - hopefully this is the one that will take.